aging

this past few days i find my self thinking alot...

i'm turning 21 this week and i haven't really done much
in my life..

i sometimes wonder about other people
at the same age as me and yet making a whole
difference..

it's really getting into me and it really makes me
sad and at the same time thoughtful.

i thought, "hey..! i'll make my life worthwhile
starting on my birthday..! i promise!" but then i got
a little of beat again just thinking how to start it..?

a while back, a friend told me a that i sometimes forgot
things and i don't keep up with my promises..
more things said than done..
and it really got me coz it's kinda true..

i can change this..i have to..
so that when it comes to it, i'll have lesser things
to contemplate on and regretting about..

..how can i keep promises and do things for others
if i can't make a promise and do things for my self..?

i'll just have to do it then..

think..
change..

and maybe by the end of the day, i can find my self
smiling on the promises i've kept and the things i have done..
and laugh with that friend who pointed that out..