it's an ass..!

i have filed an application for my graduation.
thinking that i have finally finished my studies
and all that.

finally it was all over..!

i was thinking that maybe i'd look for a job
or maybe i can take a few months off just to
savor my new found freedom. i was thinking that
after this there is no turning back. i'm now officially
part of the society and with it comes the duty of
making use of my "man power talents"
for our dear country (that is if i have one).

i was thinking maybe i'd treat my mom on my first pay check
give her a day off in the spa, or i should treat my friends
in a nice spot that i can't easily afford for them
given my daily allowance.

something nice.
something good.

i was asked to come by last monday (jan. 14) to
get my credits evaluation and to pass a copy of my
birth certificate and then if happened..

meteors on fire showered from the sky directed at me.
there was thunder roaring and lightning flashing
along with it. the ground break around me and
i found my self falling head long to oblivion.

the world ended.

i died.

apparently my application is on a "pending" status.
it seemed i have failed a subject. it says so on the
school registrar's files. i have to take/enroll that subject now
if i want to take part it in the april graduations..!

i didn't deserve this..!

i knew i passed that subject..!

i asked for reconsideration. a full check up on my grades.
i have lost my grade slip from that previous year, didn't give that
much importance thinking it was all saved up on school records
(as it is their job!). plus, the professor on that subject have gone mad
(mind you, he is mad before that anyway), AWOL...
right after the mid-terms, he has gone missing..

vanished.

it's not my fault, why?!? and of all the students
why me?!?

and so i waited.

two hours of sitting there felt like an eternity.
the registrar called me.

"i'm sorry miss, but we can't find it. it's seems that
his records are not here. i'm sorry you’ll just have to enroll
it and maybe if we find it, we can issue you a refund."

i was dumb founded.
i've gone numb.

i stared at her for a whole min.

i reasoned out.
she didn't listen.

i reasoned still.
she made me look stupid.

i'm still talking.
she cut me off, told me the same stuff and made me
her[them, the school] look the victims of this situation.

i've just gone tired of the exchange.

my mind left me and betrayed me.

i admitted defeat...

i end up doing just like what she said
oh, how i hate her...

...school is so not cool to me right now
(it never did anyway..)

fate

" there is fate...
and it will take you there...
but once your there, it's up to you
to make it all happen..."