bland

a friend once asked me "yehn? why's your blog a bit..bare?"

last april, i got my degree in information technology
and i thought with it i maybe able to get a decent job;
well at least that's what i thought, but no. Up until now
i'm still searching for a job. it's really quite hard
because there's so may of us , graduates, out there than
job opportunities. so many applicants yet so little vacancies..
i think that's just one the down side of things, philippines
being a 3rd world country and all; this is just but another problem
in the long list.

"you know more things in design than me, so why waste it? i mean
you could have a more decent blog account than this..?
why wont you redesign it..?" he asked once more.

the answer is i just don't want to. yeah it's true that i could do that
but then again this blog would be just like any other in the net.
one of the fancy blog/journal accounts and i don't want that.
i like it to reflect just like me.
i know that i should take pride in doing it, having an IT degree
and all, but i find my self reluctant to do that. i mean is it a must
just because i'm a computer person? i don't think so.

i'm plain.

that's the real me.

that's why this account is just like it is.
because this is me.

i find solace in writing here. my on little world.

i know i don't get "hits" in this site nor i get profit for it.
hell, i don't even know if anybody else reads this, well except
me and a few close friends, but the fact that i can rant here
as much as i want with out the rest of the world at my neck
brings a kind of peace on me that i know i can't find anywhere.

i feel special here somehow.

even though in reality, everybody sees me just like everyone else.

here i can just be me.
no boundaries. no anything.

bland